I don't know about you, but when my pain and exhaustion levels are high I find the best thing to do is escape into fiction.
This is not a new thought, I wrote about it back in 2019. But at that point, I was talking about reading on equal footing with watching programs. I find that books are not always able to provide the level of escapism necessary. Even though I read the majority of all books on my Kindle. I still have to be holding it. There is something much more subversive about watching something on a screen. It is so much easier to get completely absorbed.
If you read yesterday’s post you will know that I am currently going through a flare-up. This is more than my pain levels, there is certainly some degree of low mood - I don’t want to use the word depression but in all honesty, I am at a point where I can’t tell in this is just simple stubbornness on my part.
So once again I am turning to fiction to escape. The strange part is that rather than doing this throughout the day, I am still coming and sitting here at my desk and convincing myself to be productive (even if it is false productivity and I don’t actually achieve an awful lot). I then take to my iPad at night and binge-watch a series through to the early hours.
I am not even sure if I am watching that late because I can’t sleep or not sleeping because I am watching. But that period of complete absorption takes me away from my self and my physical limitations and gives me a whole new existence within the plot.
I would love to hear from anyone who relates to this.